Here we are, in the last trimester, and suddenly everything has moved a little bit closer, a little more into my consciousness.
Of course, there is the breathlessness when I only think about going upstairs to our bedroom, the heartburn and the swollen feet (the heat is helping with that no doubt), but other than that everything seems to be going as it should.
I had an appointment with the midwife today, who checked everything there was to check, took my bloods and listened to the baby’s heartbeat. The little bean is already head down, which accounts for the joyful kicks landing on my ribs. Let’s hope it’s comfortable enough a position to stay in for the next couple of weeks.
I am thinking about nesting, as in: how many cardigans/longies/hats/blankets can I still knit/sew? I tried making a list to prioritise, but that is not so easy. There are only few things we really still need. There is a lot still I want to make.
I haven’t gone through Kaya’s baby things yet, but a friend has dropped of so many clothes that I doubt we need to get anything. We did buy one little sleepsuit on my husband’s birthday last week, so the little one can have one special welcoming outfit.
I reserved a busload of books at the library about pregnancy and childbirth, but I am returning most of them unread. You can really confuse yourself if you want to.
I’m sticking to my name books.
This is a tricky one. We need a name that is pronounceable in English, German and Turkish, and doesn’t have any funny connotations in either language (that is the tricky bit. Part of my husband’s family is from a Kurdish/Arabic speaking are, and sometimes I feel like everything means something funny in Arabic).
I don’t really want to have a definite name picked out, I like having a shortlist and then meeting the baby first to see which name is right. But even a shortlist is proving difficult this time round.
Thus far, there is only one name we both like. And I’m not sure if there isn’t another one out there. I have a strong feeling about the sound and meaning of the name I am looking for, but I just haven’t found it yet.
Or maybe we have.
I’m sure it’ll all come together at the right time. Until then, I”ll eat some more ice cream.